A friend of this family

Find me at the edge of the yard.

Just some body, nearby to that

Neat, still burning constellation.

Curling leaves shuffle in the wind,

Circling the well-kept stones before

Trending towards the crude border.

Beneath the proud, silent branches

They found a plot for aching bones,

Wrapped up in their ancestral mud.

Now, as then, the ground they walk on.

“A friend of this family”:

Words that injure this offbeat plot.

Calloused hands that worked in service

To those callous and pedantic hearts,

Kept close to bare the weight of myths.

So speak aloud the fading name,

Worked into the moss-wearing stone

When it still stung the hearts of men.

Listen to the ringing church bell,

Whose sound barely touches humble ground

Here, at the edge of the yard.

Shaw’s Corner: A Lesson in Not Meeting Heroes

The other day I went to Shaw’s Corner. The former residence of Irish playwright George Bernard Shaw; or GBS to his friends (not really). Now I didn’t really know anything about Shaw: I came across him in passing during my undergrad, I knew he wrote Pygmalion, which was adapted into My Fair Lady, but almost nothing else. I was only there because of its proximity to me and my need to try out a new camera, so I went in with an open mind. The house is quite remote, at the end of a series of long, empty roads with blind corners, lined with thick bushes and trees– the fair weather made the journey feel like a summer road trip . You arrive first in the car park, with dusty, crunchy gravel underfoot, a silver food truck and a hut housing all the Bernard Shaw-themed merchandise you could want.

We walked in to the hut and scan our membership cards and left feeling very smug and self-satsfied after being congratulated for having young person’s memberships (for we are the vibrant, promising future of the National Trust). The house itself is obscured by tall hedges along one side of the car park, but once they are rounded the house pops into view. It’s an odd sight. The walls, a reddish-brown brick accented with bright green pipes and window frames, seem to jut out at random and three rooftop chimneys complete its unusual silhouette. It feels like something out of The Hobbit or a Wordsworth poem, the greenery that clings to so much of the walls make it seem like the house itself might have sprouted from the ground.

Shaw’s Wall of Portraits

While the gardens are lovely, it was the inside of the house that I found the most interesting. For the most part it is fairly unspectacular, a big green door opens into a room with off-white walls and framed photos and paintings surround another clutter of off-white doorways that lead to more rooms. The furniture is frail, the decoration old-fashioned with gaudy flower patterns adorning the greenish-white curtains. But one particular decoration really hadn’t aged well. Along the top of one fireplace was a row of photos and drawings: first I noticed a photo of Gandhi… then Lenin, then Stalin. It turns out that Shaw was a dedicated socialist, eugenics enthusiast, dictator admirer and crackpot who thought Hitler should be allowed to escape retribution after WWII and retire to a quiet life in Ireland. It made the old curtains seem positively progressive.

A view of Shaw’s Corner from the gardens

Up the stairs, in the former room of Shaw’s wife Charlotte, was the ‘museum room’. On the wall were flowery quotes and extracts from letters, written by Bernard Shaw. Unfortunately for Charlotte, the letters were not addressed to her but to one “Mrs Pat”. Mrs Patrick Campbell, an actress and socialite, was inspiration for many of Shaw’s characters and, once they began negotiating her appearance as Eliza Doolittle in Pygmalion, the two began an intense relationship and exchange of passionate letters. Although Wikipedia tells me it was an ‘unconsummated’ relationship, I’m sure Shaw’s obsessive gushing didn’t please his wife.

A room full of books in Shaw’s Corner

The whole thing reminded me of Thomas Hardy who developed similar infatuations with female acquaintances. Florence Henniker, a writer with whom Hardy eventually collaborated, was forced to reject his romantic advances (despite his being married at the time), although was later used as inspiration for Sue in his final novel Jude the Obscure.

Later in life, the actress Gertrude Bugler became an object of interest for the now eighty-year-old Hardy as she played the leading roles in the stage adaptations of many of his novels. This time, when Gertrude was due to star in Tess of the D’Urbervilles in London, Hardy’s second wife gave in to her jealousy and refused to allow it. While I don’t have Thomas Hardy posters on my wall or drift off to sleep listening to his poetry, it leaves a slightly bitter taste when someone who’s work you admire has their raw, unfiltered character revealed to you.

All this made me think of how we deal with the complexity of our cultural heroes. George Bernard Shaw is undoubtedly significant, his work should be read and not thrown out along with his troubling personal philosophies. I am glad that the photo of Stalin remains on the fireplace as a record of Shaw’s reality, but it seems to be just an inconvenient footnote attached to a monument to his brilliance. And I concede that the house may exist as just a snapshot of a famous person’s life for posterity but the National Trust website just delivers a watered down version of Shaw’s socialism that feels a bit intellectually insincere; a way to justify the celebration of the man. But it has to be possible for people to exist both as venerated celebrity and flawed human.

An annotated manuscript

In the social media-influenced dialogue, however, it seems that there is a shrinking space for complexity and nuance. I think ‘Cancel Culture’, perhaps rather controversially, can be a useful phenomenon… sometimes. When a public figure’s reputation is so concretely positive and elevated, it can take a collective effort to pierce the facade of perfection. But, in a sphere where everyone craves clickable, shareable and digestible opinions, people must be heroes or villains– and the distance between those two states seems to be shrinking.

In the current climate, this piece could be considered a concrete cancellation of George Bernard Shaw, and the National Trust’s literary hero becomes a villain. But I think really it is just unveiling another aspect of a messy, human life and, while it takes more effort to untangle appreciation for achievements from dogma and ideology, it makes for a far more interesting story. Surely Winston Churchill can be both a white supremacist and unalterable enmeshed with the story of Allied victory in WWII and any complete deification or vilification is unhelpful. But perhaps those who were made victims at his hands would rightly call out my insistence on balance and nuance.

A statue in the gardens at Shaw’s Corner

I don’t know what the right answer is but what I have decided for myself is that not only should you not meet your heroes, you shouldn’t make them in the first place. And as we were leaving Shaw’s Corner, we went up to the silver food truck and bought a couple of drinks. While the girl was grabbing them she told us about Shaw’s office in the gardens outside the house. ‘It rotates so he could face the sun whenever he wanted, ‘ she told us, ‘and he called it London, so his housekeeper could tell unwanted guests that he was away in the capital’. I chuckled thinking about the clever system and decided perhaps one should not meet their villains, either.

Wimpole Hall: Books, Big Baths and Mrs Bambridge’s relics

At about 1pm on a lazy Sunday we decided to head to Wimpole Hall. The estate is in the village of Wimpole, just outside of Cambridge, and on the 45-minute journey we drove through sleepy retirement communities, passing signs for whimsical places like Litlington and Bassingbourn-cum-Kneesworth (seriously). As we approached the estate a small sign told us that the Estate was ‘full’, which was slightly concerning. But while it was not, in fact, full it was what I described as bloody busy. We circled the car park a few times to no avail before waiting in the ‘overflow carpark’ (a big field) for a space to become free. It was the first genuinely sunny days of the year which was the impetus for our trip but it also meant that, with the upcoming half-term, the vast grounds were filled with middle-class families complete with long-haired children and Hunter wellies.

The Old Stable Block

On the way to the hall you pass the old stable block– now a courtyard set inside four walls of bright red brick, the entry way topped with a narrow clock tower, finished with white columns and a flimsy weather vane. Further up the path there is a church, made a bit less welcoming to visitors by its placement behind a row of bushes and black, metal fence. This, too, displays the beautiful red bricks on about four fifths of its exterior, the rest is made up of large beige blocks betraying the combination of old and new structures. “A Frankenchurch” I said out loud, met by an entirely deserved silence on the still air. Finally, after rounding a slight corner, you reach the hall. Again, the red brick is on display, interrupted by dozens of windows which are accented by dirty white borders. But the most striking thing about the hall is its unfaltering, incredibly satisfying, symmetry. Three tall rectangles with ornaments dotted along the roof, flanked either side by a slightly shorter pair of rectangles.

Latin Quote Set in Stone.

We stopped briefly to take some photos before heading up the gravel path and inside. The first room you step into is pretty ostentatious, with faux marble pillars and Latin quotes, quite literally, set in stone underfoot. ‘Nec Cupias Nec Metuas‘– neither desire nor fear, to want for nothing and to fear nothing as Google reliably informs me. These extravagances, along with bright white busts that sit below murky paintings of a dog and horse, made this room the most typically ‘country estate’ and the least homely. But as you move further into the house a strange combination of antiquated extravagance and the ordinary becomes apparent. The hall was passed from Sirs, to Earls, to Dukes, Lady’s and Viscounts before ending up with Elsie Bambridge, daughter of writer Rudyard Kipling. And until 1976, the year she passed and bestowed the house to the National Trust, Elsie remained.

As I mentioned before, the house definitely has its indulgences and excesses. There is a huge bath in which the whole village could probably bathe, a magnificent library with thousands of leather spines on display (which, as a hoarder of books, made me extremely jealous), not to mention a private chapel and a space, the size of some people’s flats, that remained relatively empty because the owners couldn’t decide what to do with it. But as we wandered around the hall, the things that constantly caught my attention were the remnants of an old lady’s life who lived not too long ago, an uncannily familiar world that is just slightly out of reach. In the pantry, for example, was an old Terry’s Milk Chocolate packet that must have been from about 40 years ago which made me imagine Mrs Bambridge indulging in her favourite sweets on a winter evening. Also, despite the seeming grandeur of the paintings hung on the walls, they expressed a sense of humour and humanity. Firstly, if you’re looking for paintings of animals then Wimpole Hall is the place to go– it seemed that every other painting had a majestic horse posed in its foreground or at the very least a dog placed at the feet of its owner. But, one painting in particular stood out as highlighting the levity with which Mrs Bambridge treated her decoration. Lit from below by the painfully yellow glow of a dusty lamp, there hangs the portrait of a cartoonish, young woman cradling a green bottle in her left hand and raising a glass in her right– cork unscrewed on her lap, eyelids heavy and mouth shaped into a playful smile.

In many cabinets there were these small porcelain figurines– so delicate looking and painstakingly decorated with watery colour– that reminded me of something my grandmother used to own. She had this snowy white figure of a woman, accented with sky blue, and she was holding an umbrella that you could remove (though I don’t think we were supposed to). In fact, the most overwhelming part of the experience was the smell. It smelt like my grandmother’s house. The floors creaked like her floors would creak under the same thin carpet. Jess said the pantry smelt like her grandmother’s kitchen– the musty glow of spices kept for decades, trapped in the old wood. All this made the hall feel familiar, lived in, real and with the fingerprints of a real woman all over it. A man in the basement of the house told us about a radio that still had the old names of stations on it and how he would listen to Radio Luxembourg because that played pop music. Another told us about the hall’s late adoption of electricity, lacking it even when she was a young adult in the 60s. While other historic buildings and sites can feel cold, all this gave Wimpole a distinct vitality. Its story felt tantalisingly close– in reach– as though if you tried hard enough you could step back there and live it, Mrs Bambridge having just popped out for tea.

Wimpole Hall

Lately I find recent history more and more fascinating. Partly nostalgia and sentimentality but also partly, I think, because it is easier to discover and imagine the human aspect in those stories– the minutiae of experience. I heard in a video someone use the term ‘relics of humanity’ to describe the clues of previous owners found within or attached to second-hand purchases they made on eBay and I think that phrase sums up the main reason I felt enamoured by Wimpole Hall. After the long line of aristocratic owners, the hall ended up in the (relatively!) ordinary hands of Elsie Bambridge. And behind her, in a house full of excess, she too left her own relics of humanity, the things that cut through and resonate beyond the conceits of a stately home and remind you that these people existed not in the abstract of a booklets and plaques but in the same world of joy, pain, loss and love that we do. Their voices still seem to ring around the rooms, the beds seem still warm.

Oxburgh Hall: a house in flux

National Trust Review

For my birthday a few months ago I was gifted membership to the National Trust for the year and I have decided to try and write a short review or post about anything that struck me during my trip- so here we go.

Although intending to make my first trip as a member as soon as possible, life– of course– got in the way and it wasn’t until this past weekend that I made my inaugural trip. I was going on a weekend away with family in Norfolk and so decided to find the nearest site to where we were staying, which turned out to be Oxburgh Hall. Because it was being chosen on the basis of its proximity to us I read very little about it and booked tickets to a tour highlighted on its page- again taking little notice of the its substance.


The approach to the hall is inauspicious: the taller sections of grey wall appearing from behind a cluster of trees. It was only as we pulled up on its gravelled carpark that I noticed sections of the house surrounded by scaffolding. Concerning– yes, but other people were walking towards the ticket booth unperturbed so we followed suit. After a few minutes of queuing we approached the small window, set inside an archway of an exterior wall that surrounded the gardens as well as the hall itself.

“So you know the house is closed today?”

It seemed that our lack of planning had backfired on us and the promised tour was never to be taken.

“Oh, but we booked a tour online.”

This seemed to be the secret password as we were told to meet in the courtyard just before 2pm. But before we were sent on our way, we were duly told off after our group of eight was reduced to four due to slightly less interested family members dropping out last minute. The house itself is very pretty. It was a grey and rather miserable afternoon but the rectangular building stands stoically against its backdrop. The bricks have this pale, almost pink colour and its angular outline makes it look like a beginner level castle. We walked over the moat encircling the hall and entered the courtyard, in which the full extent of the scaffolding became clearer. The entirety of one side of the house was covered in the metal framework, making it completely inaccessible. , However, before we could speculate further the tour began.

Oxburgh Hall, set against the grey afternoon sky.

Unfortunately, I have committed the cardinal sin and have forgotten the names of the two brilliant tour guides who showed us around the house (a sin I vow not to repeat) but we were lead by a grey-haired and bearded gentleman who spoke with a kind of rural wisdom, kind of as though he had breathed in his knowledge via the country air. He was joined by a diminutive woman who looked, in her long coat, like a schoolmistress with a softer and more kindly demeanour. They seemed like a Brian and Mary, but that’s probably not true.

It was soon explained that we were, in fact, on the Winter tour in which the majority of the house’s furniture was covered with off-white sheets while then house was being cleaned. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t slightly disappointed but it became clear that the house had a lot more to offer than what was under these sheets. The scaffolding, it turns out, was a scar from an extremely unfortunate event. One of the three dormer windows on top of that wall, having not been integrated properly into the existing brickwork, simply slid off the roof. It had been held in place from over a hundred years with a wooden beam but once it rotted to the point of breaking the window broke free. Upon subsequent inspection of the house, more and more structural inadequacies were discovered and the hall was suddenly facing millions of pounds worth of repair. And this was the state of the house in which we encountered it.

The Courtyard, with scaffolding to the right.

The guides did their best to convey the history of the house in spite of the circumstances. Its creation (in its current form) in 1482 as a house to impress rather than defend. Some tapestries woven by Mary, Queen of Scots and a medieval drawing etched onto bare wall usually hidden behind the wallpaper. While the house’s history is definitely fascinating, the thing I was most struck by was the state of flux in which the house was existing. Many of the features of the house (including the ill-fated dormer windows) were additions during a period of huge renovation by the 6th Baronet in the 19th Century which made the current renovation seem like part of a cycle, an ebb and flow of stasis and change. Similarly, when previous generations sold their personal homes to save Oxburgh Hall from property developers the storage of their belongings rendered some rooms unusable, just as the current renovation had done with the Queen’s Room. Even the story of the current occupant who, present on the night of the accident, was evacuated by the fire brigade made the tale of the house seem alive and continuing.

A small section of the garden surrounding the hall.

Although in less than desirable circumstances, I felt as though instead of looking back at a static picture of history I was seeing it being made in front of me. It was a reminder that we aren’t immune to the passing of time and that stories will be told about the things we did– whether we rescued the house or let it fall in to ruin, whether we continue to be curious or let its secrets fade from memory. The modern custodians, too, has a responsibility in the way that the narrative is told, as proven by the discovery that the King’s room is simply a reference to, rather than the site of, Henry VI’s visit to Oxburgh. As the guides drew back the curtain on the day-to-day running of the house and spoke about the struggle to innovate and engage with the public in the face of the repair bill it only highlighted the feeling that the history and continuing vitality of the house can coexist- that it is not only a story to be told but one still being made.

I would recommend the house if not only to support their repairs then also to experience the its flux and change. The staff were knowledgable as well as welcoming and endearing while the house has a subtle beauty and grace.

They also make an incredible hot chocolate.

Jack.