hangxiety

hi, how you doing? just checking in to say

we all agreed that your jokes weren’t funny

and we found the sporadic,

confessional insights quite intense—

self-flagellatory, even. also, you know

that sincerely-held opinion you expressed

really earnestly? yeah we all think that was

trite. horrifically unoriginal.

that takeaway won’t make you feel better,

by the way— and, not to worry you, but

I think you’re due a really bad day at work

tomorrow.

New Year

06/01/12

Let’s welcome in the new year.

They swing the door open wide.

I’m yanking at the handle.

Close that fucking door.

I’d prefer to stay here.

At the edge of the universe.

In the twilight hour.

Where memories dance in the cool air.

Don’t let the fireworks stop.

Aim them at the sleeping sun.

I like to look back.

At all those things we’ve done.

The new year is a new mountain.

It’s a grisly truth.

It’s the bully in the film

Who the hero backs into.

He’s behind me, isn’t he?

But if I never turn around,

I never get the knuckle sandwich.

We kissed under the mistletoe.

Then at midnight.

Then we are abstinent,

For eleven months.

Kiss me twice at midnight,

And say that I can stay.

Not at your place.

But in this moment.

Where Our Compassion Sits

Some days there are those gusts of gloom,

Laced with the nagging smell of grief,

Which gathers clouds with gnashing teeth

That darken each uncrowded room.

Down the sheets of dark descend

To stun outstretched, unshaken hand.

Quick– slam the doors to neighbours’ land

And chill the warm embrace of friends.

Some days you ask the darkness in

Through the anxious scrolling thumb.

The graver news that always comes

weighs on your soul, deep under skin.

But kindled there, the fire of hope

That punches holes in sheeted dark.

It’s sparked by aching, beating hearts

And fanned by hands of bathroom soap.

Though it’s no war; Dunkirk nor Blitz,

We fight these battles where we can.

But let’s give one empty, peaceful hand

To grow where our compassion sits.